“It all starts with not wanting to get out of bed, that’s how you know you’re getting bad again”
does anyone else’s brain constantly bounce between like 10 ed moods at once
like rn my mind is going:
“ok so if i eat exactly 700 cals every day for a month i’ll totally lose a bunch”
“maybe i’ll not count and just try to eat super clean and healthy”
“im just gonna fast for as long as possible”
“fuck it maybe i should try to recover”
“im a whale and eating is stupid”
like…..bitch make up your mind??
rn im the second mood
Why can’t I have a body that I actually love.
Why can’t I have a body that doesn’t make me paranoid of my boyfriend falling for another girl.
Why can’t I have a body that people actually want to look at.
Why can’t I have a body that will cooperate with what I want it to do.
Why can’t I have a body that makes me believe my boyfriends compliments.
Why can’t I have a body that everyone will notice and acknowledge.
Why can’t I have a body as skinny as all the other girls.
Why can’t I have a body that isn’t mine.Help me have control.
❤ and I’ll fast for 1 hour.
🔁 and I’ll fast for 3 hours.
